To tell or not to tell
Over the weekend I was struggling with a dilemma of whether to tell someone the truth, fully aware that the recipient will feel more guilty than he/she already does or to lie about it. I will admit part of me want to tell the truth because..well its the truth and I did tell that I will let her/him know. But knowing that this person already feels bad even when I am confused why made me hold back, pause and weigh things around if I should still tell the truth knowing that it will just make this person even more guilty. I asked people and one reply was "it depends if you want her or him to feel guilty." A part of me does want her to feel guilty but once again I thought what good would it do? It is not going to change things or make things better or make things the way they used to be or make me stop thinking about it. In fact the opposite will happen. I wont stop thinking about it and at this point I dont want to think about it.
BUT..
On the other hand, if I lie, I dont think this person will believe me anyway and he or she will see through the lie. I also dont want to lie because I will be lying to myself as well. I am teetering on being fearful of making another person feel uncomfortable. But then again, what about me? I think its crazy to ask my own self to come up with a story so that I wont be responsible of making another person feel bad. I think whatever I do, he or she already feels bad as it is and that is something out of my control.
So the weekend past and I was checking my emails when I chanced upon my horoscope for Saturday which I only read today (Monday)
Saturday, December 13:
Don't let yourself keep your feelings all bottled up today -- it's vital that you express them whenever you get the urge. If that means you've got to make someone uncomfortable, that's a small price to pay.
So what do I do now? My horoscope was so spot on that its so eerie.
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